It’s March already, which means that it’s time for a flip through my bullet journal spreads of February! As you may have noticed, I haven’t really been active on my blog for the past couple of weeks, and therefore I also wanted to give you a little bit of a life update. Keep on reading if you’d like to know why I haven’t been very active, and what my February spreads look like.
To start off with: a life update. This part of the blogpost is kind of hard for me to write about. I think you might’ve already noticed that I barely posted a blogpost in February, and that I changed what was supposed to be my February to be read to my February and March TBR (and I think I now have to change it to both my February, March and April TBR, since I haven’t really read a book in a while now).
There is a reason why I’ve been absent on here and didn’t really want to write a blogpost, or read a book. For those of you who also follow me on my Instagram and read my latest couple of posts, you probably already know what I’m talking about.
Initially I thought that February was going to be one of the best months of 2018. I had a lot of time to read and I was going to see Imagine Dragons (one of my favourite bands) for the first time in a concert, so I was very excited. On February 19th I went to the concert and had a blast, because it was amazing, but the following day my world came crashing down on me.
For those of you that have been following me on Instagram for a while, you might’ve seen my cat, Poppy, in a post every now and then. Poppy was my everything – she was my whole world. My favourite part of the day was around the afternoon, when it was getting dark and she was sleepy, so she cuddled up on my lap and slept there while I read a book. Now and then she’d wake up, roll over and purr while I cuddled her.
My sweet Poppy has passed away on Tuesday, February 20th. I still can’t really believe what has happened – my dearest Poppy was hit by a car and had to leave us in the prime of her live. She was still so young, only two and a half years, and it was way too soon and too sudden. I was – and still am – going through a really hard time ever since it happened. I’m trying to get back to blogging and reading soon, but I’m just not really feeling like reading or writing at the moment.
I have caught up with my bullet journal spreads, though, so it’s time that I show you my spreads of February. I really like how my February cover page has turned out, even though it has some gaps. I used a lot of quotes from Imagine Dragons, since I went to their concert as I already mentioned earlier. This page also has a lot of pink and happy colours, which I really like. And I also used some washi tape (even though I have lots of washi tapes, I rarely use them, but I wanted to use them now and I like how it’s turned out).
Following the February cover page is the monthly overview, which I barely used (again, I really need to use these more! They’re super helpful for a quick overview of what’s going to happen this month, but for some reason I just don’t use them).
After the monthly overview comes my February habit tracker. It’s really helpful to keep track of my daily habits.
And there come the weekly spreads – they’re still my favourite spreads to make by far. I just love using the pictures, stickers and writing quotes. The first weekly spread has a few blank spots. I usually make my weekly spreads the week before, but when I don’t have a lot of time I just put the pictures in and write the days and the things I have to do that week. And then, when I have time (sometimes at the end of the month) I add more quotes and stickers to really finish the spread.
So initially I was planning on filling the spread with some more quotes later, but after what happened February 20th with my sweet Poppy suddenly passing away, I just didn’t really feel like writing happy or uplifting quotes, so I decided to just leave it like this.
The same goes for the next weekly spread – I wanted to fill the gaps with some quotes and more stickers later, but I just wasn’t really feeling like it, so I just decided to leave it like this. I do like how it’s turned out, though.
And then comes the week prior to the concert. I’d already written the quotes on this page since I had the time to do so when making the spread, and I really like how it’s turned out.
And then comes the week of the concert – and of the accident and Poppy passing away. I’m a bit speechless now, and just don’t really know what to write here. I thought this was going to be one of the best weeks of 2018, because I was finally seeing one of my favourite bands in real life (and believe me, the concert was great). But the day after the concert the accident happened, and without a doubt in my mind can I say that that was the worst day of my life so far. I just never imagined losing my Poppy so soon – she was so young, and it was so unexpected, and I still can’t really comprehend what happened.
Since I already made the weekly spread of the concert a week earlier (without the quotes, because I added those in later), I wanted to dedicate the next weekly spread to my sweet Poppy. That’s also why the second page of this spread is a poem by E.E. Cummings, named I Carry Your Heart With Me. It really shows how I felt – and how I still feel – about Poppy. I know that she’s with me, even though I can’t see her, and I will always carry her heart with me. She will forever be a part of me, and I will never forget her. Reading this poem really gives me a bit of comfort.
And that were the bullet journal spreads of February. It’s turned out to be a completely different month then I first imagined, and I honestly wish that I could say that this was a good month, but it really wasn’t… It’s still really hard and I’m still going through a rough time, but I’m trying to stay positive. Hopefully the next couple of months will be better.
On another note, I also made a little video of my Bullet Journal spreads from December 2017 ’till February 2018. This was the first time I made a video of my journal, and I really enjoyed making it. I’m thinking about making more videos like this more often. What are your thoughts about it? I’m very curious to know.
And that’s it for now. I really want to start being more active on here and writing more blogposts, so hopefully I’ll get back to reading lots of books, writing reviews and more blogposts very soon.